Another 5 days to 6 month

our pride and joy is going to be 6 month in another 5 days! this half a year are amazing! up and downs with so much fun watching her grow and learning things so fast make us worry we might be missing days of her when her baby'ish, she was less mobile and depend on us ..well i guess there's what parents come across

just prayed that you grow well in God's path and words..

stay happy and continue bring joy to people around us

Sleep Training

i dayre about this last week and today marked 12 days of our sleep training another 2 days we will be on our own without the sleep consultant!

actually i was against it when Chloe was 3 months read this i thought we should give whatever the baby wants because she need it 

secure, love, hug

secure as it nurse to sleep, love from co-sleeping, hug from carry her all the time

but when she grow older i realise it might not be the way if we never teach her to be independent she will never learn how to

and the main reason of not training her at that time was laziness..and i dont know how to do it correctly i don't want to put her in any risk 

perhaps we did put her in a risk - SIDS. Because we co-sleep her having her in the middle of our tiny queen size bed with our heavy quilt cover is very dangerous when i think back

all this result her waking up more middle-of-the-night 

at 5 months 2 weeks she show no sign of sleep through the night till and it got worse she woke up every 2 to 3 hourly asking to be nurse..whereas she can drink 4 hourly in daytime, its was all the comfort sucking we are pretty sure about it

so we decide to go on sleep training

many say it's cruel and unnecessary eventually she will wean off why put a tiny baby in a training? Cry!? letting her cry, seriously? you're just a lousy mother that cannot deal with lack of sleep! 

and yes i can't really take it anymore i slowly get really frustrated when i put her to sleep slowly i've develop a pattern okie is nap time let's nurse until she sleep i tell you it can take FOREVER! sometimes she can have only 1 nap! good times she will have 2! but she will wake up God know how many times in one naps because she wake up seeing i'm not there..she can stay awake for 5 hours but really cranky and fussy about everything and wanting to be carry EVERY MINUTES! 

yes is close bonding and she really needs me.. but its not fun when you have no help at all..no helper, no parents no one there to let you have a break or catch a breath! 

even when hubby is back from work he is willing to help me but the problems is evening was her most crankiest timing..(i reckon due to all the lack of nap in the daytime) she just refuse to let hub to carry her or play with her all she want is her milk bottle which is me 

really im exhausted..i'm weak physically too i fall sick every month be it mantis or down with flu..i look pale like zombie, no joke heavy dark eye circle, can't stop losing weight no matter how much i eat, i'm worried for myself..if i fall really sick who is there to take care of her? who to latch her since she don't take bottle?

 i once thought of going back to work may be better for me and her, sending her to infant care may works but i realise its me being irresponsible, i was the one who want to be SAHM so much, i was the one who decide to be with her in her early years but now i want to escape

yes all these are my confession that i never shared with anyone

so i prayed..i didn't pray that much in my life..now you can imagine how tough is motherhood to me haha

and i got an answer all these causes of lack of sleep for me, hubby and of course the poor baby 

and i still love her don't worry

training was another tough one!To execute..it required so much patient and perseverance.. without prayers asking for wisdom and strength from God  we have been give up way at the beginning..

first 2 night we basically didn't sleep at all.. she cry we soothe lay her down cry again soothe again and lay her down again- repeat xN times i tell you my back is gonna broke

second night was better shorter time to soothe her and third night she had her first STTN in her 5 months..although till now it haven't happen again, hubby say that night was God's grace because i was really sick so God let Chloe to sleep through and i got a good rest! Thanks God!

after 12 days of training these are her improvement

1. No more nurse to sleep she doesn't rely on my boobs to fall asleep anymore once I sing her lullaby she will start yawning 

2. Daddy can now put her to sleep! Hopefully soon it will be anyone can do it 

3. Instead of waking up 2 to 3 hourly asking for feed in the night she now can have her milk 7-8 hour from her last feed! big big improvement although no SSTN but this was good enough! 

4. No more co-sleeping! she seems to know the crib is where she suppose to sleep now! 

5. She nap better too! Instead of waking very frequent in her 1-2 hour (wake up 4-5times cry when she realise no one around her) she now only wake up once or none in her 2 hour nap and easily fall back asleep!

6. My house can finally have some noise! My Friend commented "your house become library when baby sleep Hor!" Yes she wake up even a pin drop.. Now we can watch tv, cook and wash dishes without waking her up.. Thanks to white noise!

7. She is less cranky and fussy in her wake time..she play on her own flip non-stop and enjoy her toys! 

8. She's on a better routine..she goes to nap every 1.5 to 2 hour for 1-2 hour nap and wake up cheerful and happy..bedtime she goes to bed at 7 or 8 depend her last nap..

We need to learn how to put her to nap when we're out and thing we regret is

why don't we do this earlier?!! 

although till today i still haven't sleep enough but my longer stretch is now 5 hour not bad! i enjoy Chloe's wake time more now as she doesn't whine so much asking for attention i myself miss carrying her so i would carry her on and off throughout her play time! 

next friday we will be back to KL for chinese new year! another challenge of keeping her schedule with the folks around plus all the visiting..but i'm going to take it easy..*take a breath* let her enjoy her time with grandparents while taking enough rest to keep her cheerful self! wish us luck!

  

Parenting is indeed challenging, there's a lot of self debate inside us but times will prove it correct or not..all we want is the best for our baby! 

And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates. Deuteronomy 6:6-9

Chloe's first solid

seriously where does the times goes? is it just me feeling that time pass extra extra fast when one become a parent? on her 5 month old i started to introduce cereal to yeah her first solid!

my friend notice she is all ready for solid, she asked me to start to introduce bit by bit

• Head control *check* always very strong 

• Sitting well when supported. *check* she always love to be seated but she still hate her high chair though

• Chewing motions *check* sometimes i'm so envious what is her actually chewing

• Significant weight gain *check* way double than her birth weight

so we let her lick a little pear that we having after dinner she was so eager to try and lick a few times, tasting it carefully then give us a wide smile! yes baby food for you!

so i get geared up all the tools that need for solid 

Healthy Time Brown Rice Cereal, OXO Tot On-the-Go Feeding Spoon, OXO Tot Divided Feeding Dish, and Munchkin Hot Safety Spoons

finally our sukusuku EN high chair are put into good use! 

 Chloe: What!mummy you're finally giving me other food than breastmilk!!

let's begin chloe solid journey!!!

Baby Chloe - 3 Months

where does the time go?
Chloe is already 3 months and going to be 4 months in 10 days!

it's been an exciting 3 months plus spending with this cutie 

amazing how fast she picking up new skills everyday and can't stop to surprise us!

3 months old at 59cm, 6.3kg 

Chloe Milestones at 3 months

• Lift her head high on tummy 
• Always attempt to sit on her own whenever you put her on the lap
• Little PR (she smile to stranger from cleaning Aunty in the mall to doctor who examine her provided she in her good mood if you smile at her she normally smile back - giggles and laugh out loud when you tickle her cheek or tummy)
• Fixed to her routine quite well and taking longer nap and more wake time in day time also there's some occasional day when she just want to play all day! 
• Laugh out loud at random stuff we say like "Getchu" "Cha" 
• Vain Pot (love looking at herself in front of mirror can't stop smiling at her refection too)
• Chatty (especially when she woke up in the morning)
• Express herself (Started to shout when she excited n scream when she's annoy especially you try cradle carry her )
• suck on a fist or a few fingers (that's her favourite activity i read since is one of the best ways babies have of comforting themselves so i just let her be all i do is clean her hand often) 
• Always kick her leg n wave her hand whenever I pass by her rocker I Guess is her signal of asking me to carry
• Grab things like hair and our neck skin haha that is really painful
• Okie to be carry by others when in her good mood 
• Started to enjoy bath time (hopefully I don't jinx it) no crying for a week already except when you carry her out from the tub n dress her I think she want to be in the water longer.
• Drink less or not at all when we're out especially in Church for Sunday Service i guess she don't like nursing cover as there's no proper nursing room in church and overwhelmed by surrounding all she want to do look around and kepo

For Mummy

• understand her clues better
• more relax on parenting
• breastfeeding have become a bliss (target bf is 1 year old)
• secretly love/enjoy it when she only recognize me or want me to carry
• more me time
• wish there's some time off to catch a movie or a date with hubby 

she look like a little girl in the picture
*tear* please don't grow up so fast

p.s:Mummy so regret didn't start to write a monthly post for baby Chloe

so im starting at 3 months hope it's not too late

The Final Trimester

People in the office have been commenting that i've been pregnant forever!

every Monday morning when they see me they will go like "Hey why are you still here?" , "When are you going to rest and give birth?" 

but to me times really flies and here i am at Week 37 to be exact we have 2 weeks and 4 day left till the EDD! Baby Chloe is now at correct position weighing at 2.6kg but not fully engage yet according to our Doctor she will still stay in there for another week or two but to be safe i got my hospital bag packed and baby clothes washed.. I'm ready anytime when you ready, baby

This is last week for me at work, I'm going off for my 3 months maternity leave and i can't wait for that! travelling to work is really tiring for me as my bump is really big and heavy 

also i'm extra clumsy, 2 weeks ago i fall down at home when i step out of the washroom..scare die me 

i hurt my knee but Thanks God didn't touched my bump and baby still active and kicking  

These are the symptoms i'm having now at this stage

Pelvin Pain - nothing new but getting worst whenever i stand from siting its hurt so bad! and finally i know why every pregnant lady have the same walking pattern and i now walk like that too! holding my back and super slow with my steps

Insomnia - especially after my midnight toilet break, i read this somewhere "Mother Nature’s way to prepare you for the sleepless nights ahead" like seriously? i'm now trying my best to catch up as much sleep as i can now but this mother's instinct thing is keeping me awake?

Same weight- since week 33! I'm worried the first time in my life i worry of not gaining weight but doctor say is fine as long as baby is gaining and okay. Many women don’t gain any weight at all during the last month.

Can't stop drooling at night - this is weird hahaha.. but yeah 

// bump at week 36 //

I couldn't be thankful enough to God how He have blessed us throughout the whole pregnancy..especially after reading so many cases of miscarriage at different stage of pregnancy, i'm so sad when i saw this news of a lady i followed in instagram, she bring me smile whenever she post picture of her bump her joy can be read from her captions and i enjoy every single post of her so much.. after a few months when i remember to check her out again in IG and found out she loss her baby at week 39..it really affected me and feel so sad for her and make me realise it's all depend on God's plan and mercy from the beginning baby is the gift from God, He can give and take it back anytime..no matter how careful a mother is to protect the baby in the womb anything can happen.. all we can do is to pray and surrender also cherish every moment baby is in bump safety! Continue praise for this miracle that God gives us! 

Baby Chloe's Nusery

 Yup, name is decided for our baby girl

－Chloe Lau Ee Xuan |  刘苡萱 －

actually chinese name got more meaning..also got next baby name in mind liao..haha obsessed mummy is obsessed..

since im in week 36, time to get everything ready before im getting very clumsy and heavy

first thing first the baby nursery since i have her wardrobe prepare way before this and i'm now banned from buying clothes for her 

Today gonna show you where she gonna spend her time at

we don't have a room for her so she taking half of our bedroom since our cot is very mobile we can push her out of the room whenever we want! haha

Color scheme that used for the nursery

dusty pink, mint, gold and white

only 2 furniture for her..cot and the changing table!

Micuna sweet bear cot and Ikea changing table 

attached with four wheels, 2 with brake that give mobility for the cot and it's very light also Micuna cot have this relax system that's why you can see the mattress is abit tilted 

cot bumper, bed sheet, and diaper pad from Mothercare

thinking should i get the cot mobile

and that's her first soft toy i called her the raindrop that daddy approve it's unique and cute..

 Ikea changing table haven't fully equipped with baby's changing stuff yet so now only deco stuff 

since im preparing so here a list to remind myself

Diapers, thermometer, wipes, baby toiletries (nail clipper, powder, diaper rash cream, cotton ball, Q-tips), Baby Wash Cloths, burp cloths, socks, mitten, and anything i missed out?

i supper love the pink diaper bin i got from taobao i read somewhere a close and quiet diaper bin is very important so i invest bit on this and of coz option for a pink one! 

 details~ 

 love every single little gold details
most bowl and glassware are from Kikki K last year collection from the voucher my colleague gave me last birthday also got the knitted crown for baby Chloe can't wait to make her wear it
hub say he foresee Chloe is gonna be my doll and styling model for next couple of years

not sure how it will look when we have all the necessaries stuff ready here

will shoot any picture to update the "reality"

but now i can just enjoy my time staring at this corner while waiting our little princess to arrive..

"Dear God give us godly wisdom and your words as I bring up this little one and I pray that she will grow up into girl you favour. Teach her, Lord, to trust Your wisdom and plan, with a faith from up above." in Jesus name i pray, Amen.

My Pregnancy Essential

#1 My Baby Book

Got it from kikki K..love the design

haven't update much tho but im happy to look at empty content book everyday

can't wait to fill up the rest in future

#2 Clarins Stretch Mark Control

Recommend by Sharon, if you ask me whether is it good...i'm not sure

coz right now i just want to prevent stretch mark appear so far haven't notice any yet, thanks God

so i think it's working pretty well

use oil at night and cream in the day time, the sales assistant give me few travel size too so i can bring it to work with me..

3. Daily Breakfast 

my fast breakfast in the morning so i have energy to fight with crowd in the train and bus..ya sound like a battle to me, i don't drink birdnest everyday tho and not sure whether it help just for the sake of drinking since my father will constantly check my birdnest supply

#4 Pregnancy Pillow

 i can't sleep without it once i own it, love it to max..

 theraline pregnancy pillow is easily bend and very flexible, great purchase ever!

#5 Moisturizing Lotion

my skin turn very dry these day so i try to force myself to apply lotion as much as possible 

#6 Weighing Machine

weight myself every morning and night monitoring my weight so i know how much i gain 

not only me gaining weight hubby too! haha he reach his heavier weight recently! 

Today we may found out baby gender! can't wait to go to the doctor later to meet our little baby bump

First Trimester Journey

6//12//2014

Feel tired all the time!

wake up super early actually after knowing this news i'm more of worried baby healthy how to be more careful this 3 months and not to tell much people about this till baby stable 

so im very kancheong did lotsa research on good gynae in SG how much is maternity package, but Thank God again hubby's company can covered most of it if baby is delivery normally..

this morning i called one of the women clinic nearby just to do my 1st check, the experience nurse is super professional she ask me all the details then she say it's too early to visit the doctor and ask me to go next week when i'm in week 6 

incase my dose of frolic acid from 1 to 2 everyday..

so yeah next week only we will our baby thru ultrasound! can't wait

so today we did a quick shoot for Odelia (baby of OWT clients in SG who we did their pre-wedding last year)  she is so adorable and cute! how i wish to have my baby right now in my arm!hahha

baby is such a happy pill..i've been feeling tired and sleepy since morning then im energetic again when i met her the shoot was good~ hopefully they like the photos 

after the shoot i'm a died fish~ i need my nap! how am i gonna work next week! 

later we're going to dinner & dance that organized by hubby company..

this week is the second party in a club first was Luxola Holiday Party i successfully avoid slip of acohol although i don't know i'm pregnant! God has his plan! normally i at least drink half glass of wine or beer but no i didn't even the games required each of the members to drink but i met this super nice barterer that make me non-alcoholic but look alcohol drink! 

just come back from Dinner & Dance.. another drinking session and i have only have some mock tail

 why lar angmoh company always like drinking session in whatever party..

 

7//12//2014

Eventful Sunday

hello baby today we spend morning in the church then go to auntie Gretel, Sze Jia & Esther's place for house warming all the way at east 

laugh a lot and had mummy's first Taboo game! it was fun and i enjoy it also use their weighting machine for my first pregnancy weight record: 41.6kg

but today mummy have this pain on my left stomach i'm so worried is you that is alarming me something but again i ask uncle google people there say its normal as long as no bleeding

so just keep remind myself not to be so sensitive and be positive and learn to surrender to God..today mummy tell auntie Esther of your good news! coz so happen she send me photos of bunch of happy pills(babies & toddlers) in church! and she's always the one i love to share news..

then we went shopping at JEM then dinner by the time we reach home is 9 at night! what a night! i'm so sleepy right now after writing this i'm gonna sleep 

11//12//2014

Diarrhea

i seldom have diarrhoea in my life but today i got it went to toilet for 3rd time now and still counting!

some more of all days today i choose to wear this romper with vest someone 

so every time i go toilet i have to take off all the clothes! but as long as no bleeding is good

good that i clear out my dirt in my stomach so baby can have clean and healthy stuff!

i've been very hardworking in eating frolic acid these day i'm always a forgetful person when come to pills or vitamins intake but i know its important for baby so yeah! ill eat all the frolic acid! not all lar..2 per day as per doctor advice..

12//12//2014

Abdomen pain

have this abdomen pain sine last week its like a period cramp kind of pain

i'm worried so called my mum and she ask me did u moved stuff 

i'm was like yah...but just moving my workplace to another table

she warn me not to do so...tho its sound superstitious but just try your best to becareful and avoid all the moving and carrying heavy stuff 

so i decided to tell my lead i don't think i can take up video job anymore coz it require long hour standing and carrying stuff here and there..tho i like it a lot but i feel very burden and sorry to my baby everytime i tend to move alot when come to video shooting

Thanks God she is very supportive and yeah no more video for me..

can't wait tomorrow to come! so i can have my first check up to see is baby ok..

been feeling really fatigue and tired this whole week i sleep at 1030 every day! and feel hungry so easily!! arh.. i can see myself putting lotsa weight soon and i start to feel like vomiting the whole day! gosh is that morning sickness???

WEEK 6

13//12//2014

Our first meeting!

so today we went to market to buy cooking ingredient decided to eat more homecook 

so baby can be healthy baby..and we brought sour plum to ease my vomiting feeling

after that we head to the gynea to do our first check up!

doctor and nurse are very friendly there.. and midwife say is normal to have cramp like period pain on and off as long as no bleeding.. pheeww..Thanks GOD!

and tadaa! first sign of life in my womb!!!!

really i don't know how many times i Thanks God even still early stage

foetus in correct position and everything seems alright at this stage which is week 6

doctor predict my due date is on singapore national day! haha if only i'm a citizen lar..

we still deciding whether to give birth here or in KL 

next is to sleep more and eat more nutritious food~~

see you in the screen next 2 week baby~ please grow heathy

14//12//2014

Hungry Bird!

nowadays when im hungry i really feel angry 

coz that kinda of hungry/empty stomach is something i never experience before

i even feel like vomiting only feel better if i start eating something

and i can't eat much each meal but i need more meal to avoid this hungry feeling coming back

this weekend is all about sleep and eat!! i never sleep enough tho now sleep x2 times a month ago but ill feel tired and keep yawning after a while!

so many changes in life suddenly, but as long as baby is healthy im happy to adapting to all these~ 

also pimples start popping out should the hormones.. baby you just want mummy to look ugly & fat hor..my mum predict is a girl haha coz early changes on preggie is a sign of having a girl..accordingly to my mum lar.. i'm very happy to know that but i leave it to God lar..

16//12//2014

Morning Sickness

Morning Sickness is officially here whole day at work feeling like vomiting and nausea

couldn't concentrate much on work luckily not much work to do since its holiday season

didn't tell much of my colleague yet so no matter i go to toilet i have to make sure no one come in

have been browsing thru lot of article and books about morning sickness.. 

hopefully my got better after 1st trimester 

i'm very sensitive to smell right now 

19//12//2014

Design Department Christmas Dinner

after work we head for pizza and gift exchange! 

i'm afraid i couldn't handle it coz all day i've been feeling really tired and headache 

but after dinner feel much better and we have great time laughing playing games and gift exchange!

i love my department! we should hang out more like that..

WEEK 7 

ok morning sickness have officially become whole day sickness

i decide to change daily entry to weekly one and foresee a monthly one soon

this week we are back to KL for 2 week Christmas Holiday

baby first 'meet' with family~ everyone is excited for our homecoming at least mummy feel so

we planned to meet up few bunch of friends and outing but ended up all cancelled last minutes coz all i want to do is stay home lay on bed and sleep whole day when I'm awake I'm definitely eating 

the only thing we got tick off the list visited Penang with Cathy with her hubby for a food trip! 

but whatever holiao we ate ended up in toilet bowl 1 hour later but worthy lar at least i taste them all

my friend keep remind me to be positive vomit or feeling sick mean baby is active in my worm..i need positive energy once i got pregnant i felt moody and sad i blame hormone and the morning sickness my body is not mine anymore~

Dizziness 

then hubby successfully drag me out for brunch with in law they wanted to tried out tim ho wan so we went early to queue for them and the queue is crazy! we know the food doesn't worth the queue as we always have it in SG but for in-law we join the queue and bad thing happen

we're half way the long queue suddenly i feel uneasy to breath and dizzy 

the next time i know my vision is blur then black out, i was sweating badly cold sweat to be exact and hubby was holding we tightly on his chest 

he don't dare to move or walk out the queue as he know i have no strength to walk at all, so happen my in-law arrived and quickly help to carry me over to somewhere with chair accordingly to them i was so pale and body is cold we seated at Dome they ordered hot chocolate and sandwich for me but all i want to do is close my eye and pray..

i can hear their conversation everyone is worried and wanted to bring me to the doctor

i was fine later after food and rest, really Thanks God that i didn't fall down and hubby was with me

Weak body

after that day onwards i try my very best to avoid crowd and mall (the place i used to like the most) parent and in-law and of coz hubby take extra care of me making sure i eat enough food 

my mum make me chicken essential and teach hubby to make for me when we're back in SG then my dad brought birdnest for us to bring back, baby you see everyone love you so much! caught a cold one night then fever the next day why so weak! then i went to my mum place to rest and my personal nurse aka my mum taking care of me and recovered super fast! i really miss home 

WEEK 8

New Year Retreat with family 

the next day my dad planned a retreat for the family at Sekeping Tenggiri actually i don't feel like going because the book say that mosquito love pregnant women and i just recovered from fever but Thanks God we did! it was a nice experience, surprisingly not a single bite from mr mozzie or insect i have a good rest and fresh air make me feel better that's the first day i never vomit ever since, baby seems to love the nature huh.. i think baby is more like the daddy coz i started to hate aircon now i always have my sweater with me i hate artificial air from machine! i can use sleep without fan and air conditioner all night just like hubby! haha i couldn't believe 

okie back to our stay at Sekeping did i mention we spend our New Year there! it was a great idea waking up in the nature on new year day~ we have quality time with family talk nonsense, enjoy mummy's steamboat and laughing at each other freaking out to have shower outdoor at night

we rushed to visit my usual gynae in KL actually I'm quite happy to able to booked an appointment 

Supplements and love from everyone

i brought back lotsa love from everyone, herbs from my mum, birdnest from dad, food from in law, and plenty of supplement that everyone suggested but i haven't touch any yet till the date..

WEEK 9

i'm so dread to going back to work! i spend 2 week on bed whenever i thought of the travel journey to work ill get a headache! Thanks God i manage to survive at work my solution to crowded mrt just being patient waited for several train till crowd is lesser only i board the train and walk extra slow just don't care about time since i'm out earlier i still can reach office at 9 and leave on 6 at least~ Everyone suggest me to work from home since travelling and crowd in the peak hour seems to be dangerous to me but everyday i still make it to work safety so Thanks God lo!

WEEK 10 

try to eat more home cook so whenever i can i rush home to cook 

sometimes when i'm really hungry ill just eat first without waiting for hubby to come home which i never do it before this no matter how late i will insist to wait for him as i don't like to eat alone 

as for now all i want is to feed my hungry bump only i realise our life no longer about you and me but someone very important is joining us! excited and nervous at the same times!

i always have snack like nuts, granola bar, or at least sweet with me to avoid fainting for the second times i cannot take the risk anymore and i've officially increase my meal to 5 per day

but i can only eat half of my meal per times either i eat it later or have snack for next meal 

WEEK 11

never a book person never imagine i read a book so fast year that's pregnancy related one

What to expect - When you expecting

this book answer all my doubts and questions i feel release after reading it every time!

oh and we just brought a pregnancy pillow! thanks to bee who recommend me Theraline and so happen junction8 have it so i quick grab it home 

my new love so looking for to go to bed every night it's so comfy!!

my day are so boring these day all i wanna do after work is bath eat and sleep! maybe watch few episode of drama with hubby before bed.. even same for weekend! other than church i just wanna stay in and buried myself in the bed.. at least we make it to buy blender for juice and weighing machine! i got a red Kenwood blender to match with my red Mayer pan set..

WEEK 12

i always looking forward for week 12 as i thought its the end of 1st trimester! everyone giving me hope that i will feel better after 1st trimester and i'm so cannot wait to it! but no! week 12 is not the end! argh apparently another 2 to 3 weeks~ this week i feel extra fatigue! i can fall asleep right after dinner as early as 830 to the next morning! pig or what! and my uncertain bump size! i wake up to small tiny bump every morning then it's getting bigger after every meal till dinner time it become huge like big bump! like a balloon! so bloated which make me can't breath properly.. and since last week i don't throw up food i ate anymore which is good but only wind yes throw up wind like burping but in vomiting way and in very loud and scary volume! its always happen in the morning and stop till i throw up some gastric juice...phew.. and i'm monitoring my weight with my new weighing machine so far 1kg gain~ never in my life feeling so happy about gaining weight! 

and also try to drink cup of fresh blend juice before breakfast and eat more fruits to solve constipation problem 

sometimes i'm really frustrated, dizzy, difficult in breathing when the train is pack with crowd and those are seated are normal healthy people instead of old, mum with kids or preggie of cause i can't do anything about it but just want to complain.. me and my friend was saying first trimester is the worst stage but since most of us don't look like pregnant no bump showing no maternity clothing but inside us our body was having war! and no one is giving us seat! when i feeling thick-skin i just grab empty priority seat and people will start staring at me they must be thinking hello u look healthy and normal why are you siting? haih awkward moment.. SG should practice this pregnancy badges like what they have in Japan! and it should be given by gynae when they annouce you're pregnant with those pregnancy handbook rather than milk powder advertisement! 

we need this!!

source

WEEK 13

Baby is size of a Peach! 

Heartburn is here! i couldn't sleep last night all thanks to this new pregnancy symptom

i've been sleeping very well since i got conceive but not now anymore!

when i lay down this discomfort burning sensation on my chest is killing me

not sure is it the food i had the night before trying to find what i did to trigger this heartburn

Have been working from home on Monday don't know why my Monday always so dramatic

but Thanks God my job and boss allow me to work from home

so i don't need to travel and suffer in the office but work comfortably at work

this week have been eating out a lot so lazy to cook

finally that's one day i feel like going out after work

so i dated hubby to Paragon coz i'm planning to shoot Maternity announcement picture this Saturday, like finally..  and i wanted to buy a cute pair of baby shoe but unisex since we haven't found out the gender of our precious little one..and i do some online research before i spend my time out since i can't afford a window shopping so i found few cute one from Château de Sable

super cute and very affordable that also match the outfit i planned for us now i can't wait for the shoot, hope photos turn out good too

we also saw this very cute dress that we brought for our little niece..buying children stuff make us so happy!

my bump size it's quite obvious already tho the size is still uncertain to to bloated and gas

but when it's bloated badly i do look like 5 months pregnant so i decided to buy stretch mark cream

thanks to my pregnancy consultant Miss Sharon Bee 

the Clarins Stretch Mark Control Cream & Tonic Body Treatment Oil

but now i only remember to apply the oil at night as my morning is always rushing 

i seldom shop myself since i got pregnant other than tired and lazy all my focus is on baby related stuff

I'm happy to spend on baby rather than me since CNY is approaching i have no choice just go online and grab free loose or shift dress that i can wear during the festive 

The Magical Double Line

5//12//2014

Double Line

Today was suppose to my period due date.. so for fun and curious(coz this months at least 5 people come to me and ask am i pregnant??!? i was like really? do i gain some fat or what) so i did a pregnancy test (we stock up pregnancy test kit from malaysia since we planing for a baby coz it's cheaper there! #cheapskateparent) coz i'm very desperate so whenever my period is late ill go and test it out been trying for 2 months and no luck and very disappointed with the 1 line result each time so i didn't give much hope this month since my period is even a day late 

so just test it for fun and was not really concentrate and pass all my urine without letting some on the test area! hhaha i was thinking do God want me don't test it or what but i dont give up

and i drink lotsa water later to wait for my next urine.. and you know what!

my first 2 line in my life!!! im so thankful to God 

ever since we wanted a child we have been praying to God 

then i was thinking hey it may not be true right? so i take out another pregnancy kit from another brand (see i tell u we stock up pregnancy test) haha and 2nd double line appear!!! i'm overjoy most of the people must have call the husband to share this big news at the first time but i'm giving him a surprise~ (i always plan to do so coz i love to see his surprise face and expression) i called my mum and announce the news to her she very happy and keep asking me to eat more, take care and all..baby you're such a joy to everyone

so i got this soft toy from Bunnies by the bays that we found in Isetan few months back he say he will buy this for our baby in future together with the "proofs" in a box

all wrap and ready for him to reveal his surprise gift from GOD!

and secretly shoot a video of him open up the gift to record down the precious moment..
both of us have tear in our eye and straight we pray together holding hand God just keep pouring blessing on us! we pray that this baby can grow in God's word and guidance and honour God
so hubby can't wait to call parent-in-law so we called mil is happy and say it's time ~ haha
don't know why after i know this news i'm extra sensitive with the feeling in stomach i keep feeling that's sense of cramp here and there throughout the night but i googled it's say its quite normal as long as no bleeding.. baby please stick on mummy's ovary firm ok!